Sunday, March 04, 2007

When K was quoting Charlotte from Sex and the City, I had a moment of, "Why does this still seem like we're in grade school?"

"It takes half the time you were together to get over someone," she said.

So what happens if the person was on-and-off with the person for over a year?

The Best Friend noted, "Guys tend to mentally check out of a relationship long before they actually end things."

You know...I think things were easier when he was still unavailable. Now that's he's recently single, I'm getting bombarded with this one question: "What are you going to do?"

Truthfully? I was going to do nothing.

I don't want to be anybody's rebound person.

And another thing is...when you've been burned and after all of this time, you're still a little bitter, still a little hurt, and still a little walking wounded, it's just really tough to want to hang your hopes on anything.

But maybe that's me.

In case you couldn't tell, I'm more than a little jaded and cynical.

Sometimes, I get this sense of, "Time is fleeting. Do something now. Do it before it's too late and this becomes something you regret." And other times, I think, "Well, what if he's not into me?"

Maybe I've read, "He's Just Not That Into You" one too many times.

Yes, that book is mostly common sense, but sometimes, reading those words of common sense just hammers something into you that's not really sticking.

The Best Friend has this theory: if a guy likes you, he'll let you know. Doesn't matter how shy he is. If he doesn't make any sort of move, he's just not that into you. Simple as that.

So, there's no point in trying to decode what a look or a comment or an email means because it means nothing. If a guy's interested, he will let you know in some shape or form.

There's no sense in trying to make excuses like, "He's just shy" or "Maybe he's afraid of rejection" or "I've been sending him mixed signals too."

Which, by the way, everybody says I have.

I don't know what's wrong with me, really.

You know what I don't like about myself? It's the fact that I think too much about these kinds of things...and then feel the need to analyze it to death. What's there to analyze? Nothing's happened.

Now that he's single, I'm so busy trying to play it cool, like I'm not interested, that I wind up looking totally disinterested.

One time, when I was talking with someone, he passed by and said hi and I completely ignored him.

*sigh*

Don't say it. I don't know what the fuck's wrong with me, either.

And what do you think about dating co-workers, anyway? Is it too messy to even contemplate? What if it doesn't work out?

Maybe I'm jumping too far ahead.

One thing a couple of friends have asked repeatedly is this: "What if you guys get together and you discover he's not who you thought he was?"

I don't know.

Right now, I feel like I'm just on the fence, sitting there, trying to decide if I should hop down and which direction I should go.

How's that for opening up in a post instead of writing about inane shit for a change?

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