Today's Soundtrack: "Goodbye" - Audio Adrenaline
You'll be fine tomorrow -- the sun will rise
Being the nerd that I am, I compiled a So You Think You Can Dance playlist on my IPod.
What of it?
Yesterday, I did a pretty good job of distracting myself and avoiding that creeping sense of unhappiness that seems to always lurk around...always waiting to pounce.
Sometimes, when I'm out with friends, I'll wonder if, maybe, certain relationships mean more to me than they do to the other person involved...and then I just wonder, "Why even go there? Why?"
I think that's why, for the most part, I've tried not to be too dependent on anybody...mostly because I don't want to come across as needy or burdensome to anyone.
And sometimes? Yeah, I wonder if maybe that's why relationships are hard for me...because I'm so busy trying to convince myself that I don't need anybody that I just wind up pushing the other person away.
C and I had a good view of the lake from where we were sitting and as we ate lunch and caught up on how things were going, I couldn't help reflecting that, if I had the power, I'd want to make her life happier...but the thing is, you can't really help someone who's really stuck in the notion that her life is crap and that it's meant to be suffered through.
You realize that, whatever you say that's not what she wants to hear, is just going to be dismissed...because she thinks that you don't really get where she's coming from.
It was Canada Day yesterday, so we have today off...and it kind of sucks when you have no plans for the long weekend...'cause then that's just an extra day off where you're doing nothing, mulling over things that you don't want to think about.
Mostly read today, after sleeping off a mild hangover.
It's not a habit or anything --- this desire to drink until I'm ready to collapse into a little ball and just sleep away whatever sad feelings have been brought to the surface.
Read something today that got me thinking...
Maybe happiness is something you have to work at...yes, we all feel sad, angry, hurt, and betrayed sometimes...but we have to remember not to let those feelings consume us to the point that we forget to live.
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According to Kristen on Eonline, the first official hook-up from So You Think You Can Dance is Kameron and Lacey...which isn't all that big a surprise...but it would have been interesting if it'd been something like...oh, I don't know...Lacey and Hok.
Something out of left field, you know?
You'll be fine tomorrow -- the sun will rise
Being the nerd that I am, I compiled a So You Think You Can Dance playlist on my IPod.
What of it?
Yesterday, I did a pretty good job of distracting myself and avoiding that creeping sense of unhappiness that seems to always lurk around...always waiting to pounce.
Sometimes, when I'm out with friends, I'll wonder if, maybe, certain relationships mean more to me than they do to the other person involved...and then I just wonder, "Why even go there? Why?"
I think that's why, for the most part, I've tried not to be too dependent on anybody...mostly because I don't want to come across as needy or burdensome to anyone.
And sometimes? Yeah, I wonder if maybe that's why relationships are hard for me...because I'm so busy trying to convince myself that I don't need anybody that I just wind up pushing the other person away.
C and I had a good view of the lake from where we were sitting and as we ate lunch and caught up on how things were going, I couldn't help reflecting that, if I had the power, I'd want to make her life happier...but the thing is, you can't really help someone who's really stuck in the notion that her life is crap and that it's meant to be suffered through.
You realize that, whatever you say that's not what she wants to hear, is just going to be dismissed...because she thinks that you don't really get where she's coming from.
It was Canada Day yesterday, so we have today off...and it kind of sucks when you have no plans for the long weekend...'cause then that's just an extra day off where you're doing nothing, mulling over things that you don't want to think about.
Mostly read today, after sleeping off a mild hangover.
It's not a habit or anything --- this desire to drink until I'm ready to collapse into a little ball and just sleep away whatever sad feelings have been brought to the surface.
Read something today that got me thinking...
Maybe happiness is something you have to work at...yes, we all feel sad, angry, hurt, and betrayed sometimes...but we have to remember not to let those feelings consume us to the point that we forget to live.
01Jul2007 004
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According to Kristen on Eonline, the first official hook-up from So You Think You Can Dance is Kameron and Lacey...which isn't all that big a surprise...but it would have been interesting if it'd been something like...oh, I don't know...Lacey and Hok.
Something out of left field, you know?
2 Comments:
i LOVE Hok....
though he doesn't seem to have a big enough personality on the show.
about happiness, i was watching a movie the other day, and they spoke about this.
the declaration of independence states that we have a right to the "pursuit of happiness", and maybe that's all we get...the pursuit, not the goal.
So I guess by now you've heard that you are totally clairvoyant and that the first hookup of the SYTYCD Season 3 is indeed Lacey and Hok and NOT Lacey and Kameron. That is indeed completely out of left field, but now actually real and true. How the heck did you come up with that one?
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