Okay.
I caved.
I went and bought an IPod, even though I've been sort of against getting one. But the thing is, I didn't have much of a good experience with the alternative, which was the Sansa Express, even though it came highly recommended as a good alternative.
It wasn't.
I quickly discovered online that a lot of people were reporting the same problems I was experiencing --- namely, that the player would automatically shut off and stop working altogether.
Bottom line? You get what you paid for. And maybe it's not such a good idea to try and find an inexpensive alternative.
And so, I'm now in the process of transferring some of my song files onto the IPod.
For some reason, I find myself thinking back to that documentary I watched a month or so ago called "Lovable" which was all about singles and their search for love and how hard that search can ultimately be.
The director was in the middle of this huge project of converting the songs he had into MP3s...or something like that. I don't remember now. The point is, at the time, I was watching this and I thought, "Ummm...yeah."
N thought I had an unhealthy obsession with this documentary, even quoting from it from time to time. She thinks that thinking negatively is the wrong way to go about things. She thinks that you have to whole-heartedly believe that things will be all right.
Every time I write that ("things will be all right"), I think about that song by the Umbrellas called "The City Lights". Every time I hear that part, I feel like maybe things will be all right.
It was weird how, earlier this week, I had a moment where I just felt...empty. Bored. Tired. I should have been happy and I knew that even bringing it up would just make people want to smack me. When I went out for lunch with SKR, she kind of looked at me, perplexed and said I should be smiling. This whole job thing was finally sorting itself out --- I'd been feeling stuck, like things were never going to work out in the career department when all of a sudden, this job, which seemed tailor-made for someone with my credentials and qualifications and experience just appeared out of nowhere. And yeah, it might have taken a really long while to finally secure that job, but it was now mine.
Shouldn't I be relieved? Happy, even?
And yet, my mind automatically reverted to worrying about the other thing in my life that wasn't settled.
SKR mused that maybe we were alike, after all --- maybe we were always just yearning for what we didn't have. Isn't that just the way life goes?
N was getting increasingly impatient listening to all of this talk...which is why, for the most part, I try not to talk about it. Unlike a lot of people, I fully realize just how annoying it is when you whine about something over and over again. God knows I'd been experiencing the same thing with SR and was now dreading the sound of my cell phone ringing and seeing her name pop up on the call display.
I think the main reason I hate talking to SR these days is because I know that most of her hopes and dreams will stay just that --- hopes and dreams. She talks a lot about wanting to do certain things, but she doesn't get off her ass and do anything about it.
Granted, it might seem like I'm exactly like that, too, but to be fair, I don't tend to post a lot about overly personal stuff and all you get is just the same old blathering when I'm feeling like shit.
When it's stuff that I actually feel like I can do something about i.e. actively looking for a job because I can't stand the one I'm in, I'll do something. The other stuff? Like making someone you want fall in love with you? That's completely out of my hands.
Speaking of love, I found myself thinking this morning that it kind of sucks to be continually pining after someone who's not sure about you, who doesn't want to take that leap of faith for you. As pompous as this sounds, I know I deserve better. But the thing is...what do you do when you don't really want anybody else except for this one person? How do you just shut off your feelings? I mean, when I go on dates, I find myself sitting across from yet another guy and my heart's just not in it. I like getting to know new people, but only one person's on my mind...and I'm afraid that I'll just come off sounding like some crazy stalker person, you know?
Maybe that's why it's better to just not talk about it with anyone. And I think I've gotten better at it, too...even though, whenever something happens, I just wind up puzzling over it on my own, wondering, "Does this mean something? Or is it nothing?"
It's all so stupid. What am I? 12 years old?
Anyways...I also picked up a Canon SD1000 today. I've been on the market for a new camera, too. I've been using a crappy Samsung one that's light and compact but which takes shitty pictures.
I caved.
I went and bought an IPod, even though I've been sort of against getting one. But the thing is, I didn't have much of a good experience with the alternative, which was the Sansa Express, even though it came highly recommended as a good alternative.
It wasn't.
I quickly discovered online that a lot of people were reporting the same problems I was experiencing --- namely, that the player would automatically shut off and stop working altogether.
Bottom line? You get what you paid for. And maybe it's not such a good idea to try and find an inexpensive alternative.
And so, I'm now in the process of transferring some of my song files onto the IPod.
For some reason, I find myself thinking back to that documentary I watched a month or so ago called "Lovable" which was all about singles and their search for love and how hard that search can ultimately be.
The director was in the middle of this huge project of converting the songs he had into MP3s...or something like that. I don't remember now. The point is, at the time, I was watching this and I thought, "Ummm...yeah."
N thought I had an unhealthy obsession with this documentary, even quoting from it from time to time. She thinks that thinking negatively is the wrong way to go about things. She thinks that you have to whole-heartedly believe that things will be all right.
Every time I write that ("things will be all right"), I think about that song by the Umbrellas called "The City Lights". Every time I hear that part, I feel like maybe things will be all right.
It was weird how, earlier this week, I had a moment where I just felt...empty. Bored. Tired. I should have been happy and I knew that even bringing it up would just make people want to smack me. When I went out for lunch with SKR, she kind of looked at me, perplexed and said I should be smiling. This whole job thing was finally sorting itself out --- I'd been feeling stuck, like things were never going to work out in the career department when all of a sudden, this job, which seemed tailor-made for someone with my credentials and qualifications and experience just appeared out of nowhere. And yeah, it might have taken a really long while to finally secure that job, but it was now mine.
Shouldn't I be relieved? Happy, even?
And yet, my mind automatically reverted to worrying about the other thing in my life that wasn't settled.
SKR mused that maybe we were alike, after all --- maybe we were always just yearning for what we didn't have. Isn't that just the way life goes?
N was getting increasingly impatient listening to all of this talk...which is why, for the most part, I try not to talk about it. Unlike a lot of people, I fully realize just how annoying it is when you whine about something over and over again. God knows I'd been experiencing the same thing with SR and was now dreading the sound of my cell phone ringing and seeing her name pop up on the call display.
I think the main reason I hate talking to SR these days is because I know that most of her hopes and dreams will stay just that --- hopes and dreams. She talks a lot about wanting to do certain things, but she doesn't get off her ass and do anything about it.
Granted, it might seem like I'm exactly like that, too, but to be fair, I don't tend to post a lot about overly personal stuff and all you get is just the same old blathering when I'm feeling like shit.
When it's stuff that I actually feel like I can do something about i.e. actively looking for a job because I can't stand the one I'm in, I'll do something. The other stuff? Like making someone you want fall in love with you? That's completely out of my hands.
Speaking of love, I found myself thinking this morning that it kind of sucks to be continually pining after someone who's not sure about you, who doesn't want to take that leap of faith for you. As pompous as this sounds, I know I deserve better. But the thing is...what do you do when you don't really want anybody else except for this one person? How do you just shut off your feelings? I mean, when I go on dates, I find myself sitting across from yet another guy and my heart's just not in it. I like getting to know new people, but only one person's on my mind...and I'm afraid that I'll just come off sounding like some crazy stalker person, you know?
Maybe that's why it's better to just not talk about it with anyone. And I think I've gotten better at it, too...even though, whenever something happens, I just wind up puzzling over it on my own, wondering, "Does this mean something? Or is it nothing?"
It's all so stupid. What am I? 12 years old?
Anyways...I also picked up a Canon SD1000 today. I've been on the market for a new camera, too. I've been using a crappy Samsung one that's light and compact but which takes shitty pictures.
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