A friend asked me last night what I would have done in her place and I told her, "Look, there's no point in discussing what I would have done 'cause what you're looking for is validicition for what you did. And let's face it: we're two different people. Besides, what's done is done. All you can really do now is concentrate on what happens next."

Tossed out a few chess metaphors, even though I'm bad at chess --- but I like the whole notion of comparing life to a game of chess 'cause it captures everything so neatly. You have to play out your move in an attempt to win the game. You can't change your mind, 'cause really, even though we say we can always change our mind on things, once a decision's been made, we have no choice but to play it out and see what happens as a result.

She's gotten more soft with age; I've gotten more tough. Bitterness does that to you. Actually, bitterness does a lot of things to you --- not all of them negative.

Of course, some people would argue with me on that point, to which I have this to say: I don't care.